coffee makes the world go round

I love me some good latte. This past week, aside from actually keeping track of my foods (I am SO proud of doing this for ten days straight! Way to start a great habit!), was making most of my latte's "skinnies." Basically that means sugar-free/non-fat. Sure, I miss the whip and caramel sometimes, but it's a small price to pay. 

I also did a photoshoot with a friend this weekend and man, she totally inspired me. She is a tall, willowy thing BUT she works out hardcore to get muscle tone. She could totally just "get by" with not eating right or exercising but no. She eats right, she works out, she is aware of her health. When we were doing the shoot, I kept draping her arms in certain ways and she was all "What are you doing?" I had to explain that her muscle tone is SICK and I LOVE IT and I wanted a bunch of the photos to showcase that amazing strength and power. Feminine power rocks and she had it in spades, in all four areas of her life. 

So me, I did two push-up's when I got home. 

Yeah. Not so hot. 

But it was a start! I want muscle tone. I want to feel my muscles work. So inspired.

and i thought i didn't have a sweet tooth

Cupcakes are my doom. I know this. Sweets in general. The mini-eggs are still hidden (although not from my lack of searching) and but cupcakes are everywhere. I can get them at school, I can get them at stores, I can get them at the specialty cupcake shop on 4th and Yew. It in i.n.s.a.n.e. and here I thought I wasn't a sugar-craving kind of girl.

I am going to resist though. In the past, weight loss works best for me if I quit as much sugar as possible. My body hugs sugar until the very end. When I die, I will be all sugar. I know it. So I tend not to use unless I really have to. I don't bake, thank god, or we would really be in trouble.

Goodbye, cupcake. I shall miss you.

hiding my own damn easter eggs

I love those mini-eggs that come out every Easter. Just the perfect size to satisfy my sweet cravings. But I ended up[ buying four bags to "stock up" last night and devoured one in a sitting. I felt sick, as that is a ton of sugar and I had to ride that rush out.

Finally, I looked at my boyfriend. "Babe, go hide my mini-eggs somewhere." He gave me a funny look, saw that I was serious, started laughing and told me to close my eyes and sing. We live in a small apartment right now so I had to make sure I couldn't see or hear him rustling about.

So they are hid, only to be taken out when my sugar craving goes into overload.

The things we do.

oranges, oranges, oranges

I eat oranges a lot. Especially since the large Navel oranges came back. Nom nom nom. Some days, I only eat oranges. That's how much I love them. I'm trying to teach myself that too much of one thing is never a good thing. I can't get any protein, carbs, healthy fats or vegetables from eating oranges all day.

No matter how good they taste.

What are some of your food weaknesses? The food that you can eat all day? Everyday?

my weakness, my orgasm in a cup

I have this thing for Starbucks. We're tight, SB and me. I mean like, for real. every season - as the winds shift and the sun settles down - SB and I gather together, huddled against cool winds and the coming of snow, and we bond. That's how tight SB and I are.

SB might even be a bff. Yeah, we're tight like that. BFF style.

So you can imagine my utter disregard for the fact that this coffee is totally drenched in calories. How can a few measly calories stand between us, the best of friends?

To try (TRY!) and avoid complete and utter failure, I usually get non-fat, fat-free, skinny types of drinks. They're good. They're really good. But sometimes, you just need a venti non-fat pumpkin spice latte, with whip or a venti non-fat caremel brule latte, with whip and sprinkles. But it's fat-free milk, so that's got to count somewhere, right?

breakfast was indulgence

Today was my last day of "friend" indulgence. You know - when guests come over and it's just easier to eat what they eat. I scarfed down this chocolate thingie and skinny Starbucks like nothing. And it was good.

But it was only temporary. The day was a whole, hot mess of bad eating and that left me feeling nauseous and sick to my stomach in classes tonight. I felt woozy, light headed and like I was going to throw up.

Pay attention to your body bitch. It's telling you something.

That is what I'm thinking. I ate so much sodium today it's crazy. I feel it in my face, in my feet and in my head. And it is not good.

Thank god my excuse is gone. I also promised the boyfriend that I would work out tomorrow, since I indulged so much today. It helps me, being accountable to someone else.