breakfast was indulgence

Today was my last day of "friend" indulgence. You know - when guests come over and it's just easier to eat what they eat. I scarfed down this chocolate thingie and skinny Starbucks like nothing. And it was good.

But it was only temporary. The day was a whole, hot mess of bad eating and that left me feeling nauseous and sick to my stomach in classes tonight. I felt woozy, light headed and like I was going to throw up.

Pay attention to your body bitch. It's telling you something.

That is what I'm thinking. I ate so much sodium today it's crazy. I feel it in my face, in my feet and in my head. And it is not good.

Thank god my excuse is gone. I also promised the boyfriend that I would work out tomorrow, since I indulged so much today. It helps me, being accountable to someone else.

and the guests are almost gone

I've weighed in at 316.4 lbs - so down 2 lbs from the 30th, which is great. I'll take it. I haven't been doing my food diary and my water intake is averaging 5 cups a day, which is better than the zero I was at before. My skin is slowly emerging from its crazy period oil fest and the water is really helping it calm down. Water is beauty - my new mantra.

While I did indulge in Mall Food, I tried to balance it out by walking the mall in a brisk fashion. I did work up a sheen for half an hour. It was uncomfortable, but then again, sweating always is. The rush of adrenaline isn't there for me yet. But it'll happen, it'll happen.

yesterday with guests

I have a guest this weekend. He's wonderful, funny and locving. I adore him. But it's always harder to eat right when guests are about.

Yesterday wasn't a huge failure. A healthy breakfast, lunch and dinner. Had six glasses of water. But then we all got restless and decided to go to a movie - Zombieland was hilarious! - but then I had a medium popcorn, with butter, and a large bag of peanut M7M's. I felt stuffed and a bit icky and of course, bloated. I did stick with water as I am weening myself off my daily Diet Coke, so that was good.

I did have a skinny cinnamon dolce latte. For those of you unfamiliar with Starbucks, that just means, sugar-free, non-fat, no whip. It's still super good. I am in love with it. No jokes. When I've had a really hard day - with writing - I splurge on a tall soy Pumpkin Spice Latte. The soy is so nutty and it tastes amazing when paired with pumpkin spice. It's decadent and good and fall-like.

But anyways, he'll be here until Monday so it will be a continuous decision process of what to eat and how to eat - but isn't that my life anyways?