northern living is good for me

(i'm on the right but no face, so that's cool!)

I've been boating. Walking. Talking. Moving. Going for drives. Drinking. A lot of drinking. Hanging out. Chatting. Eating. Writing. Doing photography work. And losing weight, however unintentional. It is a great thing.

It's not HUGE numbers but for me, I'm ecstatic.

Imagine what it could be like if I didn't drink, lmao.

Sorry. I text blog. I text way too much.

Anyways.

feeling good. Feeling happy.

I spent the weekend with the girl above, who is one of my cousins, and another girl. Both who I grew up with. Both of who love me for me.

And I was insanely envious of their bodies. Strong and powerful, curvy and slim. It didn't matter the type. They were healthy and strong and yeah... I wanted that.

Is is both inspiration and a kick in the teeth, that's for sure.

back and back

I am living at home. I haven't forgotten about my blog. I'm just involved with life here.

I get jealous a lot. I hate it. One of my cousins, I think I've mentioned her before, has dropped 70 lbs on Herbal Magic. She still takes those weight suppressant pills though, so once she's off that... damn. And the evil bitch inside me is... kinda happy about that.

I'm just saying.

I'm trying not to focus on her and focus on me. This isn't a race. This isn't a competition. This is my life.

I haven't really lost any weight. By the time I left Vancouver, I was up to 325 again. Today, I was 317.5. I'm happy with it and I know it's because I don't have take-out at my disposal like I did before. I'm eating a ton more red meat, a ton more carbs. It's Northern Cooking. But i'm also moving more.

There were days in Vancouver where I wouldn't leave the house, sitting in front of the computer all day. Scary, but true. Now, I'm lucky to get an hour of time in front of the computer. I'm so damn busy.

I keep trying. That all I can do.